cheryl

2007-10-19T12:59:00.000+08:00

ha, enjoyed my peaceful not locked up blog for quite some time.
now im back here.
this is howi feel.
i just blog it out here.
it's locked anyway.
i dun like it when the top ask you for smth.
you ask the bottom.
they wont give you.
deadline has reach.
bottom just cant be contact, doesnt have what you need.
you cant do anything.
top just press in.
ha.
understand?
i mean i love to do what im suppose to do.
i literally love it.
i love to serve, i love everything.
but seriusly,
i hate to be squashed.
man,
a moment ago talk to bottom and whao, he is like so good and stuff.
next moment, he just forget whatevre i said and bang, he just said no.
HA.,
man,
i dunno how to rant on, cause im like so gonna be freak out.
forget it.
im freak out.
i miss henry,
i need him seriously.
he can put some sense into my mind.
to let me feel a little better bout myself.
i hate it.
i just wonder what's wrong with me.
i cant lead the bottom,
i cant serve the top.
cheryl ng, you're a loser.
but you will be the survivor.
ha,
contradicting.
survivor,
loser.
im just such a loser.
CHERYL NG>
WAKE UP LOSER!
oh shitz.

2007-06-13T13:03:00.000+08:00

that post is like so so so fierce.
i really felt so much better.
really.
=D
i didnt mean to say those things=D
allalala.
im feeling so much much better.

2007-06-11T22:09:00.000+08:00

weellllll...
im ya.
sad.
disappointed.
whatsoever.
next time, i promise,
outings withoutt cchms ppl im not going.,
left out,
pang seh.
maybe,
i always dun tell ppl about my feelings.
hide it all.
maybe i shud just show my feelings everytime.
when ur whole clique of friends just left u and didnt even notice that u are not with tthem.
how would u feel?
den with another group that u tries to blend in..
no one will bother bout u.
even ur leader.
im just being emo?
i dun like it lar
at least i noe that cchms ppl are going to care for me and not leave me out.
at least i noe that i can talk to them and they will always be with me.
i right now seriously dun feel like talking to any E3 ppl.
i thought seriously,
E2,E4 ppl are much better,
others i dunno them.
but they are all great.
i dunno larhs
im not in a good mood.
i tried to.
=D/D=

2007-06-06T21:48:00.000+08:00

haix....
feel so empty.
=dddddd
haix.
my mind just thought GOD NOE CAN LE.
haix.
but i really still feel like having ppl to realise lor.
without adriena, life's so empty.
haiiiiixxx.
i dunno how to say larh...
haiiiiixxxxxx...
haiiiixxxxxx....
i dunno how to say larh.
so many thing inside my mind.....
haiiiiix.
but what can i do?
i trying my best to do things to change myself to a better leader,
a better person .
like when i saw daniel,
i didnt go jumping around and go crazy.
when i see roy i try not to avoid and hide and screram.
i try to help out at chung cheng side.
i try all best for church.
but it seem like nth caught their attention.
nvm luh..
GOD NOES.
but.
haix.
today i still really very happy larhs.
i was so so so shock to see daniel at the staircase there.
hahahah.
i just walk fast fast.
dunno larhs.
i scared hors.
next time i start avoiding him?>
lol.
dunno larh
ok.
and at macs i was like ramdomly looking around and charlotte,
or shud say everyone think that i looking at guys laarrr.
im not cans?
lol.
charlotte think i looking at either jia yang or bryan.
OF CAUSE NOT LAR.
BER!.
da niao.
ahahahha.
sian.
i wont wont wont ever gonna fall in love with him.

2007-05-13T21:18:00.000+08:00

that post was meant for another blog?
=.=
nvm.
God just answered my questions in my heart unknowningly.
i meant.
i dun even noe that it was a question that i have.
it's just a super cool feeling?
i love God.
pastor Kong's seminar was good.
conversionist.
i dunno why luh.
but i feel so impacted.
yet dun understand.
i dunno why.
it seems like cannot go into my mind yet can?
oh wells.
i like to contradict myself.
=.=
letting go.
i shudnt have done that today.
i did things that will stop me from letting go.
i shudnt have done that.
im sorry.
im off.
=D/D=

2007-05-13T21:06:00.000+08:00

blogger screws!
EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER.
went back to school on friday for re test.
and got back a sprained ankle.
wells.
den went to watch spiderman 3 with E3.
i just love them=D
spiderman was great.
hehe.
rush off to pastor kong's seminar?
yeaps.
it was cool to say anything cans?
pastor kong is cool.
his preeching is so so so powerful.
didnt regret going luh.
went for both days.
it was just so cool.
i love Him.
Him.
Jesus Christ.
Lord.
My God.
i love Him.
yeaps.
im gonna be a onfire christian who just simply love God
God is First in my FIRST.
HEHEEE.
i LOVE GOD.
im so in love with Him.
=D
days pass fast.
im kinda like grew so attached to HOGC that i think i cant survuve if i dun go for any service?
i really grew so attached to E3/
adriena espeacially.
iLOVEHER!
=D
just had that feeling to blog this out cause i nearly cant go today.
and i felt so sad.
i will miss E3 and church.
allalala.
im not going school tml.
which means i will have GOD first in my [S][T]
=D
hehe.
i just wanna tell the whole world that i love my current life;
=D

2007-04-30T22:29:00.000+08:00

Traditional Cancer Traits:
Emotional and loving(This is so true )
Intuitive and imaginative
Shrewd and cautious
Protective and sympathetic
On the dark side....
Changeable and moody
Overemotional and touchy
Clinging and unable to let go
LIKES

Hobbies

Romance

Children

Home and Country

Parties

DISLIKES

Aggravating situations

Failure

Opposition

Being told what to do ;)

Advice (good or bad)

gop from min blog once again.

okies...

i really have many things in common with her.

haix.

emo?

no way.

im gonna be the unusual cancerian. yet usual.

it's actually very true bout me?

yeaps.

but im gonna change all the dislikes to like?

i will try.

im gonna change yea?

leaving u is my desicion.

Lord gave me the road.

i am going to follow this destiny.

i may love u so much that i really cant let go.

our frendship may last.

but it wont be the same.

i dunno how.

but im gonna let u go.

im gonna let God's works take place in me.

i wil let u go.

i am sad.

i cant bear it.

our frendship.

min.

as long as one day.

u are really touch by God.

i will be very very happy for u.

u never noe how much i care and love u.

but somehow im gonna leave those past.

the care and love.

...

speechless.

off to sleep yea?

bb.

im tired.

2007-04-21T23:25:00.000+08:00

wells.

great talk with mum?

felt emo...

dunno wad to say.

im just super tired and siuper speechless..

2007-04-19T20:01:00.000+08:00

well...

days passes by faster den i expect.

im already in hogc for 3 months.

days pass by as i change.

lord i ask.

why do i still hope to seek for love?

im crazy....

i might be tired of my life and feel really like being and eno person.

wad i think is emo rox.

LOL?

emo do rox man.

but im not those kind of emo ppl.

love is wad i seek?

i seek for relationships?

no i dun????

haix...

i have so much in my mind but i dunno how to speak all out.

life is facing much changes.

but most are good changes.

LOL?

im tired...

tired...

life is so so so tiring...

haix..

2007-04-19T19:14:00.000+08:00

im still working on this blog...
erms.cheryl ng...
u can do it man.

2007-04-18T21:06:00.001+08:00

trial....